When Your World Falls Apart (39)

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Posted by x_flaire_x on Sun 9 Dec 07, 7:33 PM

Two weeks ago, my father died suddenly in his sleep. He was 64. My Mum phoned me at 5.20 in the morning and I went into complete shock. I was screaming and screaming. It does seem rather vague now.

I packed and travelled as fast as I could north to be with my mother. My poor Mum, she looked so small, so frightened, so utterly heartbroken. Denial, I think that's the best way to describe how we all felt. Even after two weeks, I still can't quite accept that I'll never see him again. I'll never be able to laugh with him and I need to hear his voice and I'd rip the sky in two just to spend one more minute with him.

I love my Dad. He was a loving father and later a dear and trusted friend. I admired and respected him and always I will feel proud to have known him. He achieved so much and he embraced life with a joy that was glorious to be around.

He died without pain or fear, and that is a comfort I cling to. I just wish he had longer, but none of us know how long we have.

I love you, Dad. Thank you for the wonder of knowing you. I shall miss you till the day I die.

f x

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9 Dec 07, 7:36 PM
Marmite
UK(CB), 2 yrs
Oh Flaire.
I don't know what to say.
xx
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9 Dec 07, 7:36 PM
velvet_minx
UK(EH), 2 yrs
snugs honeybunch, I've been very proud of you this last two weeks and how you have coped.
lots of extra bamboo for you!
xxx
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9 Dec 07, 7:38 PM
Buzz22
UK, 4 yrs
So sorry to hear this flaire.
My thoughts and best wishes for you and your family.
Nothing anyone can say will help, but if you ever need any help I would be glad to give it.
Much love
Buzz
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9 Dec 07, 7:41 PM
QDs_dreamgirl
US, 18 mths
someone very dear to me passed suddenly in his sleep almost 2 years ago and i well know that feeling of wanting to rip the sky in half, just to have a few more precious minutes.... time doesn't take away the missing, but hang in there - eventually it will all become a little easier to cope with. for now, there's little anyone can say or do, but perhaps it helps to know that you are not alone, and that so many others understand and care.

9 Dec 07, 7:45 PM
Crystal_Eyes
UK(SA), 2 yrs
Oh sweetheart, i'm so sorry to hear this. Sending you huge hugs. xxx
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9 Dec 07, 7:48 PM
fawn4n
UK, 5 yrs I cant imagine how hard this must be, to lose someone so special. Thankgod I have never been there yet. I only hope I can cope as well as you seem to be.
fawn xxxx

9 Dec 07, 7:50 PM
Prunesquallor
UK, 3 yrs I am really sorry for your loss. I know it's not much comfort, but be aware that despite the pain you feel, you are fortunate to have had the relationship you had with him - something that is denied many people.
Sending best wishes to you and your mother.

9 Dec 07, 7:55 PM
LexieLou
UK(TW), 2 yrs
So sorry to hear that Flaire
((hugs)) x
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9 Dec 07, 7:56 PM
fluffy_welsh_angel
UK(DN), 2 yrs
I can only echo the sentiments of everyone. I am so sorry honey. My thoughts are with you and your family xxxxx
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9 Dec 07, 7:59 PM
kinkysussexgirl
2 yrs Sending you lots of hugs Flaire. Its a very hard time, one that will see you experience so many conflicting emotions. I lost my dad 5 years ago and I miss him terribly. The pain doesnt go away, but you learnt to live with it.
My thoughts are with you and your family, hang in there.
m xx
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Edited 9 Dec 07, 10:49 PM by kinkysussexgirl

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