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| erath |
on Tue 20 Nov 07, 7:33 PM to erath's blog.
I've found precise definitions to be one of the most contentious issues on IC and in amongst the BDSM scene in general. I've always avoided trying to pigeonhole myself, but given recent events I've felt a definite development that needs spelling out.
I feel I've migrated more towards an emotional level of submission. I mean, it's obvious that I've connected deeply to Ajay, but this weekend I felt a definite meteoric shift. We had a long and particularly debaucherous scene on Sunday (won't go into any gory details - just picture cocks and all the places they could go) and throughout it, I had to endure a couple of challenging scenarios. This has been difficult for me in the past, especially when her (on hindsight, utterly delicious) evil streak shows through, but somehow I could see the utter joy in her eyes, and that drove me through anything I could remotely consider a hardship.
And that, to me, is a key core of submission. Enduring, where you would otherwise not, for your Dominant's pleasure.
Maybe I'm talking grade-A crap. But I don't care. I like it. I love it and I love what I'm growing into.
| 20 Nov 07, 7:42 PM illuminati UK(PH), 6 yrs |
No A-Grade crap coming from ya hon...you speaketh the truth!! Soooooooooo glad you're in a happy place!
*greatbigmassivehugs* ¬lumi xxxx We're adults. When did that happen? And how do we make it stop? | |
| 21 Nov 07, 1:55 AM Mad_Eye_Moody UK(ML), 8 yrs |
Your happy mate, why should you care what anyone else thinks, I for one am happy to see it and the difference in you is noticeable. All the best, Chris Those who don't hear the music think those who dance are insane (Jay Wiseman) | |
| 21 Nov 07, 7:05 AM tiggerGlasgow UK(EH), 6 yrs |
What Chris said. You glow. Even when you're not with the lovely lady in question, you shine, but all the more when you're together. Long may it continue. A happier you makes the world a brighter place because those of us who are your friends can bask a little in delight of seeing you in your present state of mind. hugs tiggs "A life without pain has no meaning" Athrur Schopenhauer |
