Posted by redcat
on Mon 17 Sep 07, 8:11 PM to redcat's blog.
Limits.... hard limits, soft limits, nutbush city limits.
Being in a TPEesque relationship this girl has no limits other than her Masters.... but lurking around in the darker recesses of our relationship are things that; in other circumstances, would be called limits.
Things this girl is afraid of.... things she knows one day will be dragged kicking and screaming into the cold light of day and played around with and poked at with the pointy stick that is Manniqs mind.
One such thing is having her face covered.
Thinking back to being a child this girl would put her face into the pillow and try not to breathe for as long as she could.... but at the same time its always been the case that if someone else put something over her face she would have an instant wobbly.
In the early days of our relationship Manniq wanted to make a plaster cast mask of this girls face.... just a couple of strips of plastered bandage were enough for hyperventilation and real panic.
A year or so ago at BBB he attempted to put a feathered face mask on this girl and she almost fought him off... the combination of face covered and being in public was too too much.
So in his usual way... he stepped back...and hasn't pressed the issue...
Recently this girl has been pressing her face into the palm of his hand as a form of comfort...especially when she is about to cum.....
This weekend at BBB he decided we should look at hoods... asked this girl which one she'd like to try and she went for the most extreme looking one. (full leather..just two small nostril holes)...'actually' we were told... 'thats a good beginners hood as it isn't close fitting'.
This girl made sure she didn't have her back to the room and Manniq told her if she felt she was going to panic she was to tap on the table.... and on it went.
A brief moment of 'almost panic' as sort of realisiation of 'this is the point where i could panic if i was going to'..and then a decision to breath slowly and accept instead.
It actually reminded this girl of the first time she went caving with a boyfriend many years ago... we walked for a while underground and then both sat down and turned off our lights and just sat and let the silence and the dark close in..... you feel as though you should panic and then you realise there is nothing going to happen to you as long as you just sit and accept the darkness.... and it is bliss.
That hood off.... and on went the luxury...leather lined... hearing muffled hood.... and this girl just melted into the darkness.... the people, the room .... disappeared... odd muffled fragments of conversation filtered through and this girl could feel the occassional touch of Manniqs hands as he moved her arms... feeling her movement to see how relaxed she was.
Amazing....
a limit.... just melted away... no fuss... no effort...
it just confirms this girls thoughts that some limits...some things that scare you...terrify you... are the things you need to do most. Holding on to those limits... insisting they are hard limits and never to be touched... can sometimes be self defeating and an incredibly strong hold onto the power in a relationship.
| 17 Sep 07, 8:17 PM Moonbeam 7 yrs |
i have the leather lined... hearing muffled hood.... and used to wear it when suspended, i adore it but like you i had an initial fear of hoods, now i would not be without it and even tho i doubt it will see daylight again it is the only item that i cannot bear to part with. her x | |
| 17 Sep 07, 8:23 PM ghost666 6 yrs |
i had to most intense fear of hoods...but Sir and His patience....stepping back and introducing it back forward has altered my view....still over coming the in public hooding but tiny steps and pushing with a certain ammount of tenderness. so very pleased that you now can experience these.....and respect to Manniq for His understanding and compassion. all the best snarf xx you see everything | |
| 18 Sep 07, 9:11 AM redcat 9 yrs |
but...but...but... thats YOUR christmas list Sir (though admittedly this girl will wear them for you) http://groups.yahoo.com/group/objectification_in... | |
| 18 Sep 07, 2:12 PM MissLioness UK(LS), 5 yrs  |
Thanks, never thought about it like this before and i dont mean just with hoods. It could apply to any limit someone has. life saw i needed a true playmate one that compliments me and life brought to me *GoldMane* |
