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I never thought, really, that BDSM would play too much more in my life than a sexual and perhaps housecleaning type of thing. I mean, I had fantasies about it expanding into real escort-out type of stuff, acting as a majordomo in the home, valet to my Dominant, and of course as a lover, but I didn't really expect to meet someone who could truly support me in those ways, who would really understand. I figured I could only go so far. I had a little experience with that with Honey, who I would read with and watch shows with so we could converse about them, and I loved it. But I wasn't sure if I'd be so lucky to find another Dominant who got pleasure from those little details.
But here I am, reading a book for the sole purpose of being able to provide discourse with my Dominant and lover on the subject, after having tidied the home in preparation for his return from work. I've been paying attention to my posture so that I can present myself better and been less tense. I'm also preparing to accompany him to the gym to work out with him, both to keep him company and to keep myself in shape. I've spent some time online setting up social engagements, accepting some invitations and sending apologies to others, figuring out the logistics for our goodbye party, etc. I've gotten part of my preparations for our travel out of the way, having sent off for the passport and gotten the money order for my work program visa. And now, having gotten those things out of the way, I'm able to take a little time to write.
And it pleases me immensely.
I feel like not only am I providing the obvious services- sexual satisfaction, household upkeep, etc- but I'm also serving him intellectually and personally. This is the sort of submission I always wanted to do, the kind I craved in the books I read (I always imagined and dreamed I could, eventually, become a Jeeves of sorts). Here I am, working ever towards my goal. And I feel incredibly satisfied and valued. And loved. Very loved.
It's nice. 
