Posted by bunnyRys on Wed 8 Oct 03, 1:30 PM to bunnyRys's blog.
Last night I had a visitor and during some light hearted fun, I had a flash back. I became very upset and burst into tears. Because I was angry at my guest and myself for being in that position in the first place, I tried to “get some of my own” back by being the WORST cock tease. Thankfully, the guy I was with was a gentleman and while he was visibly hurt and confused by my actions he didn't force the situation and we left on amiable terms.
I'm worried that my actions may have indirectly hurt someone I've grown to care for very deeply. I texted Him as soon as my guest left because all I wanted at that moment was to be in His arms.
I couldn't sleep until 3 am. Leaving bed was extremely difficult. Figuring out what to do now is even worse.
Any ideas?
