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| MsChastity |
on Sun 18 Mar 07, 8:06 AM to MsChastity's blog.
I rarely get time and computer access these days to write a blog, so as I am sitting here alone on mothers day waiting for my father to collect me to pay special suprise visit to my mother.
It comes to this, my mind is doing the 430 in the morning trick, you know the one laying awake at 430 you glance at the clock and can't believe you only have a few hours till work and you have been awake for best part of the night and your brain just won't switch off.
I am certain we have all been there.
My mother thinks her life is dreadful and she is the most hard done by person in the world.
However she has two children that love her unconditionally and a husband who is so devoted that in this day and age that is a rare thing indeed.
I know frustration has crept in following her lack of mobility.
I am lost.....
I have had over a period of 10 years and maybe a bit longer so much thrown at me and yet I still assume wrongly maybe that I am a little more sure of my footings.
Lets see the list
Miscarriages
Death's of good friends
Violent and mentally abusive husband
Break ups that have been less than finacially amicable
Family's initial shock at the bdsm lifestyle I have become a part of
I have realised this that a lot of the time what has held me together is my deep knowledge of my emotions through my practice of bdsm
Wierd huh.... the one element of my life that some people have called destructive and pointless and many other adjectives is the one thing that stops my brain exploding at times so there you have it my brain fell out this am
Perhaps others have experienced similiar feel free to add your thoughts I always try and respond.
| 18 Mar 07, 9:58 AM ToyGirl UK(BB), 6 yrs |
Sorry to hear about all of the adversity you have suffered and described in your blog, its good that you are able to reconcile it and find a sense of perspective in it all. I wouldbe inclined to say that in my experience, its not so much bdsm that has been a pillar of strength in difficult times, but a selection of fine people and very good friends I have met through bdsm - one in particular and she knows who she is. Hope you are feeling better soon tg x "Pain is just weakness leaving the body" |
