Posted by lucky_1 on Sat 23 Dec 06, 11:23 AM to lucky_1's blog.
When I write a blog or a post do I consider the people who might read them? Well, if I am honest at one point I did. Then I found it incredibly difficult to write anything. What if? What if someone reads about what we do and it squicks them. I know that some of what we do would be seen by some people as not nice. Ohhhhhhh shock horror! BDSM is sometimes not all warm and pink and fluffy. Better make an announcement now in case we scare anyone.
This blog gets nasty OK?
It was suggested on a post that writing about shared experiences of a subject was being "superior" and that, well, just think of the people who may just feel inadequate if they cannot do it themselves.
To put it in a nutshell, don't write about things, it might just upset someone. I refuse to take ownership of anyone else's inadequacies. I have enough of my own thank you. It is one of the reasons I don't have replies on my blogs. It gives me the freedom to write as I wish.
I remember a while ago someone said that needle pics were wrong and should be banned because they were not nice! Come off it, this is a BDSM site, not the blooming Women's Institute. If you want to swap cake receipes go somewhere else. Mind you I do make a mean apple cake if anyone wants the receipe 
So, what did us "superior beings" (I'll be accused of being up my own arse one day) get up to last night. I knew something was in the air, phone calls between capi and J that left J chuckling and smiling at me. Plots and plans afoot.
Cling film. Head to toe in cling film and the backside cut out. Paddles, crops, canes, dressage whip and don't forget the pinwheel. It's been a while since we did that and I found it incredibly difficult. I could not find that plateaux of pain that I can get to. They deliberately kept chopping and changing to keep me off balance. At one point I screamed "No" through the gag only for J to retort that I don't say no to him and hit me once even harder as a reinforcement. No safeword, no way out. Utterly helpless. Capi whispering in my ear as she brushes my sweat soaked hair out of my eyes. "Yes my darling, there is nothing you can do, you just have to accept what we choose to give you"
We have played harder but I can't remember having such prolonged agony as that. When they cut the cling film off me I had to go straight into a warm bath. The sweat was running off the clingfilm.
That is how we choose to play, sadist and masochist dancing on the razor's edge of pain. If you don't like it and don't want to do it. It's OK.
That's the thing though, my kink is not better than yours, it may be different but not better. The reason for that is simple. It is what is in your head and your heart that counts. And if you want to share some of it you should be free to do so.
I have tried to be considerate in my writing but I cannot take responsibility for the thought processes of everyone who might just read this.
If we all did that, nobody would ever write anything of any value, no shared experiences and that would be dreadful. I think of northerwench and her needles experiences, the Hades pics I have seen (More blood than on the set of casualty)and I would hate to lose that. It might not be something I would do tomorrow but never say never. That, of course, begs the question..... should they be there? As it's not something that I feel ready to do, I might feel inadequate. That's it, they must be removed or better still, never posted.
So I'm not going to change.
lucky
Edited Sat 23 Dec 06, 11:28 AM by lucky_1
