Unrelated Interrelated Things & Jingle Bells (1)

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Posted by alexandraa on Tue 14 Nov 06, 6:14 PM

I've had a stressful couple of weeks of it of late. Been flat out busy at work, days seem to last about 5 mins. A good kind of busy though, but knackering when day in, day out, is like that. Big stuff going off on Thursday fingers crossed for that, (go on cross your fingers) but if it goes to plan then it will be more work than ever. Stuff in my private life too, yep the 90% of my life that you lot never get to hear about. Things to come to terms with, things to plan for, things to look forward to.

It's left me desperate to just relax, to have a laugh and chill out. Kick back with some good friends and curl up giggling on a sofa with a glass of wine or three. I was hoping for a couple of days like that lately but sadly just ended up under loads more pressure.

Some people, I think, don't know how to relate to others. I wonder do some seek out this lifestyle as something that gives them a framework, where they can box people up into packages then deal with them in a formulaic way?

I'm submissive, that doesn't mean come here and treat me like a fool. It means I have a tendency to respond to people according to how they treat me, a tendency to react rather than lead when it comes to relationships. Which means if you treat me like an idiot then I'll treat you like one, and if you antagonise me I'll most likely bite back. If you treat me carefully with respect then I will do likewise. I suppose I mirror others' behaviour. So if you think I've been rude to you then examine your behaviour, because no question about it you will have been rude to me first.

I give respect where I receive it, I don't blanket it across any person calling themselves dominant/master/sir. I did once, very early on but you soon learn that people are people and you interact with them as you would with any other person. You learn that the fantasy world of slaves, collars, masters and suchlike, has its place but that place isn't in everyday interactions with people outside of your relationship. You might be someone's master/sub but to everyone else you're just “A N Other”, who they either like or don't like.

Hind sight is always so desperately clever have you noticed? Always remember the first rule of Colbeh, Do Not Engage. And the first rule of alexandra, when your gut instinct is telling you something, then bloody well listen.

Anyway the good news is my most gorgeous best gay mate who's always good for a cosy giggle on the sofa with a glass of wine or three is back in London for the weekend, hurrah! And I've booked a winter holiday. Snow, mountains and all things cosy are calling to me. Can't wait. Will you have a white Christmas? Well I know for sure mine will be because they're three feet deep in snow already.

Did you understand any of that rambling? Well I did…. I think…

Jingle bells, Jingle bells, jingle all the way……..

Edited Tue 14 Nov 06, 10:24 PM by alexandraa

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14 Nov 06, 6:43 PM
caprycorn
UK, 4 yrs
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Ramble away, my lovely. That's when I find the blogs most useful, for my ramblings. It's so often helpful in getting twisted thoughts back into smooth order
See you soon and raise a glass with your most gorgeous gay mate for me
xxxxx
My imaginary friend thinks that you have a problem


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