Posted by domspaintoy
on Tue 3 Oct 06, 8:00 PM to domspaintoy's blog.
In agony because that which i need cant be given at the moment, strange how needing something like pain can make you think/feel irrational thoughts! It can make one a selfish, demanding, frustrated brat! i know that so why do i do it?
Sometimes i dont understand my masochistic side, especially when it becomes an urgent need like it is at the moment. im positive i must drive Him mad nattering for some relief from this torture, thats how it feels at times! i find myself over emotional and angst'y. Quick to jump at people who i percieve to imply or suggest the wrong thing (although in some cases its obvious they dont like me). i know Himself is incredibly busy and at times His job overtakes everything, i wish i knew how to switch these feelings off, maybe in time as i learn more about myself and He helps me progress i will learn how to switch it off.
When this feeling stampedes me into a whinging wittering slut, i sometimes wonder if He understands how desperate and painful my need is, i hope so because i know i don't.
Master i need You
i need to feel You,
i want to suffer for You,
i want to feel that heat the cane, whip, flogger produce.
i need to see Your Dominance,
i want to feel Your Dominance,
i need to pleasure You,
i want to see Your pleasure in me,
i Just need You!
Soon i hope 
| 3 Oct 06, 8:06 PM masterredd UK, 6 yrs |
soon slut, soon......and in the meantime be the slave I am training you to be. Bright, feminine, controlled and yes needy...oh I see you are that one 
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