Time Travel & Tiffany's (0)

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Posted by alexandraa on Mon 18 Sep 06, 7:17 PM

I went back in time today. I went to a meeting with an organisation I used to work for 4 years ago. I'm developing some new areas of work with them that I think will prove interesting and exciting for both our organisations. I had mixed experiences of working for them, some good, some bad but still have a lot of respect for their approach and field of work. They are still the kind of organisation I'd look to work for in the future. Albeit at a seriously senior level, of course!!

To go back today was like stepping back in time. There was even the same lady on reception, who recognised me too. Interesting to see the same old faces still doing the same old work, still complaining about their lot. It was very satisfying to feel I had moved on so much, risked things, faced challenges and just “done stuff”. It was really interesting to look around and feel no sense of desire to be there. None whatsoever. It's past, it's gone and done with. Not part of my life now and not where I want to be in the future.

With some of the changes that have happened in my life over the past couple of years there have been times when I've thought, I want to go back north. Fleeting moments but nevertheless there. The occasional desire to be able to buy a three bed detached house instead of a one bed flat is quite tempting too. But today I felt freshly, this is my past life and not somewhere I want to see myself returning to. Too much water under the bridge, too many memories. Never say never of course but I really feel I love London. Love living and working here, in fact am proud to do so. Crap housing costs of course but then you can't have everything.

It's a funny thing. I never saw myself as a city person. Quiet country recluse, 55 cats, a pony (or maybe roses) and a cottage, but city living? Not really and yet it was kind of there at the edge of my fantasies. A secret desire to be lurking away in a city based flat, living a secret life on the dark side… (May the force be with you… yum yum - can't beat a bit of forcefulness I find). A woman of dark and devious desires living in one of those attic flats with a tiny roof terrace, singing chim chimineeeeyyyyy, oh sorry wrong fantasy… OK so it happens to be a deceptively spacious ground floor flat but its not far off the fantasy. Thankfully Dick Van Dyke hasn't popped in.

Breakfast at Tiffany's, there's a city living fantasy you can't go wrong with too. Obviously I look EXACTLY like Audrey Hepburn but prettier. No, no you don't need to say anything at this point. That whole call girl running from herself victim thing, it's very Ds isn't it? Did you know that Moon River was written especially for her because she can't sing and apparently anyone of any singing ability can sing Moon River? Funny that because I don't feel anyone appreciates me singing it (even though I am the spit of her when I hold my breath and suck my cheeks in). How dare she be so beautiful? Look here - Audrey. Sigh. Maybe if I lost just a little bit of weight??? Sigh.

Where was I? Oh time travel. Hmmm yes, the moral of the story is - there is no going back. And really, why would you want to? More adventures, more fun, just more. That's what its all about. And should anyone want to take me to Tiffany's, I'm game for that too.


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