Posted by fawn4n on Wed 6 Sep 06, 4:32 PM to fawn4n's blog.
My beautiful daughter, 18, 5ft 10 and quite breathtaking in her inner and outer beauty, yesterday set off to volunteer in a hospital in Japan for 6 months. Now anyone who knows me or had read the blogs written by my Master will know I could cheerfully mother the world and so to let my baby go was the hardest thing I have done as a mum.
I have helped her deal with bullies, picked her up when she fell, made many sacrifices for her as she has faced some awful issues in her life and yet for me this seperation is the worst.
I am a selfish woman, I would keep my babies as babies forever no matter their needs just for my own happiness.
I know that regardless of whether this experience goes well or not, the girl that steps off the plane in six months time will not be my baby, she will be a woman, mature, self sufficient and hopefully ready to take the world by its ears for her next adventure.
So I am grieving, not for her but for me, for my role as the most important person in her life. The fixer, the enforcer, the safety net. Oh I know she will still need me but not in the same way.
Once again my beloved Master knew my mood, my heartbreak and dropped everything, driving hours out of His way, rearranging His life, just to catch me as I fell.
Funny that this time instead of me catching my girl, He was catching His.
Maybe as He is there for me in a non-parental capacity I will be able to be there for her, in a similar role to His. As the person that loves her the most, no matter what.
As always, fawn thanks You Master.
Our life together is joy, though we are so often apart.
xxxxx
Edited Wed 6 Sep 06, 4:33 PM by fawn4n
| 6 Sep 06, 4:36 PM dizziblonde UK, 8 yrs  |
you should be extreamly proud of what she is doing, be there for her when she is home sick, be there when she comes home ... good luck to both her and you xx I'm a Laydee and i have a badge to prove it |
| 6 Sep 06, 6:37 PM sweetsurrender1 BE, 6 yrs |
Gawd.......she grew up so quick!!!
She'll be fine fawn, you raised her well, be proud. hugsssssss jackie |
| 6 Sep 06, 6:39 PM YokuniCat UK, 5 yrs |
All you can do is give them strong roots and wings they choose everything else, including to fly back to you.
EDIT : as for being selfish I know what you mean, I hope she never grows up, and boys... we will live in the country so I can menace the little gits with a shotgun Edited 6 Sep 06, 6:41 PM by YokuniCat |
| 6 Sep 06, 9:29 PM babycakes UK(SA), 6 yrs |
I am lucky enough to have got to know fawn, her Master and her lovely children very well over the past six months or so. I have been honoured to have been included in their lives and have loved spending time with them all. Her kids are a credit to her, they are quite simply a delight to be around. They really are the most lovely girls. If I had been lucky enough to have had children I could wish no more than they turned out as lovely as fawn's. I know how difficult it has been for fawn to see her baby leave home, they always appear to me more as sisters than mother and daughter. Her daughter is a wonderful young lady who will no doubt return from her adventure even more delightful. Although she thinks she is selfish, I happen to think fawn is one of the most unselfish people I have ever met. She has given me so much during the time I have known her, when I know at times I have pushed her more than most would take, but still she has forgiven me time and time again and remained my friend when most would have told me where to go. As to her lovely Master, I am not surprised that he went out of his way to comfort his beloved fawn. I have had the pleasure of seeing them together and they are just the most fantastic couple you could wish to meet. He is truly one in a million, as is fawn. Your whole family has touched my life in such a wonderful way and I will always be grateful for the way you have included me in your lives. Love you guys always xxxxxx
|
