me	IC Name: simon_cheltnam Joined: 3 Apr 2007 Last visit: 5 days ago Sex/gender: FtoM Location: worcester, UK

Loyal, complex and obedient wannabe whore!! loves serious Women who laugh evilly and enjoys the company of interesting people who are comfortable with being the center of their world..

I am a submissive man with a big ego in vanilla life a go getter type with a lust for life. Creative with ideas and a different outlook on life than most. I am happy, feel good about who I am, and committed to a long term relationship a person who i truly see as my owner.

I am magnatised to those in the scene and i am wanting to get more involved, learn,and play where as until now most of our experiences are very real ones not especially around what the scene classes as fetish elements. I am open to learning about anything.

Like Alice in Wonderland i too think of 6 impossible things I would like to experience before breakfast everyday (although this is normally late as i am a night owl.) I have felt love and submission as one and it felt like true nirvana(this was with my partner).

We live here in Barcelona im British my partner from NYC but im in UK all the time (1 week every 6).

I am very mouldable and really wish to be a perfect tool to those superior to me. My dream is to see eternal joy in my partners eyes, i get pleasure from a dommes happiness but owned eventually i aim in the end to phycologically reflect only upon her desires,be her knight. I am far from that but that is the goal!

I also quite relish toying with other subs inferior to me. I get a kick out of watching them grow and learn about the pleasures of submission, suffering and worship and am comfortable using them to please me.

In the company of dominants i genuinly strive to:

Hold my tongue when i disagree. Always be respectful. I am genuinely interested in the happiness and success of the domme. I'm passionate and eager in my submission I yearn to clean, cook and work hard and to do it very well and really love keeping a home for my Mistress. I'm excited and keen to better myself. I am serious about being trained to levels of obedience that most people don't even believe are possible. I am open to all dominants kinks and desires and get rel happiness and great joy from being used as a worker tool to the desire of someone else. The more selfish and cruel the more happiness afterwards.

I adore training, protocol and service and being put to manual labour. I do not think i enjoy most pain and punishment as it happens, but before and after wards it excites me, in the end I find it cleansing and cathartic.

I am magnetised to sadists and those comfortable with using subs and understand a power dynamic and toying with it to benefit them. I find great excitement in the company of people that find it o.k to inflict suffering on me or others, for there pleasure or benefit, in fact i melt in their company.

I am always grateful for the exercise of authority, i relish being bullied and abused even if as it happens i hate it. I have always looked back at my worst nightmares as positive experiences that have been apart of the journey that has bought me this far. Being accepted in submission and being molded to please my owner is what makes me happy, suffering for anothers gain deeply pleases me and recently i have trully felt i have began to give my life to my superior reminding myself whenever i fail its her life i live for, i no longer try to win a discussion whenever i rememeber this.

I do not understand those that feel guilt for being cruel or selfish to someone who actually enjoys it and craves it. I want a world around me that embraces this philosophy upon me.

Seperatly in my fantasies I yearn to be bullied or toyed with by a sadist who does not love me so i can feel a callous feeling of abuse which is different to what my partner can give because deep down i know she loves me and has my feelings and well being/desires as a priority.

I deeply desire to build a relationship with my partner that includes love and care and also to surrender myself to scenes beyond my own relationship dynamic that are built around pleasing and giving my suffering to a sadist or using for myself the energy of another submissive for my own life gain. I was not made to contain feelings, i have the type of personality that wears my heart on my sleeve and speaks my mind even if i do say the darn most silly things.

I ramble about things that are important to me.

I see this world of BDSM as natural and feel happy and at peace with this as long as its consensual i almost wish i lived in Roman times with its higharchy. I know this is against the mainstream.I never was normal and never wanted to drop into the rat race. I think even as a living slave i have more value than most my life is much better than a fake life to please our friends family.

to sum up I am seeking friends, play partners and mentors who I can extend my journey of life with, especially those who would rather struggle than conform. As a beginner to the scene I have a lot to learn but want to make a big difference to the scene and be apart of its history.

Yahoo messenger:deviant_hope   MSN ID:simonsubmissive@gmail.com  

This profile was last updated on 11 Dec 11, 7:25 PM.

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