I am a 28 year old mixed race (half english, half jamaican) female submissive from Manchester. I can be very shy and awkward sometimes, especially in new company.

So if you meet me and I barely speak, please don't think i'm rude or just unfriendly.

Its just nerves and a touch of crippling shyness .

I tend to be a lot more chatty when i've relaxed around people or when i'm in a situation/munch/club I feel comfortable in.

As a sub...

I can occasionally be stubborn, sulky, impulsive and argumentative. I tend to act and speak before I think sometimes. It's because i'm ruled from my heart and by my emotions before anything else.

However, that doesn't mean I'm not obedient. I feel a great desire in me to serve, please and not disappoint. I am very good at being good . I try very hard. I'm loyal, loving and romantic.

Unfortunately, I think sometimes people look at how long i've been on here and get the impression that i'm some super experienced uber sub... I'm not!

I do push...

I push myself as far as I can, testing and exploring the edges of who I am and what I can do. I push my limits because I'm far too curious and I like to explore.

I push my Dom/me too, I try not too, but sometimes I do - just to make sure I know where I stand.

While I'm not looking for micro management - I need rules, structure, control. I need walls to fence me in. Too keep me feeling safe, happy and secure.

Also, I am slowly coming to terms with the fact that i'm masochistic (see deep down inside I don't think I really am, i'm just playing at it, and when I meet a "twue" sadist they'll show me that). But I seem to like pain a lot. Even when I don't like it, I like it. Those horrible screaming agonizing moments. Fuck me they're beautiful.

As a friend...

I take people as I find them. I'm very laid back and easy going. I'm the low maintenance friend who goes with the flow and doesn't really mind what we do or where we do it, as long as there's laughs and good friendship on the way. I'm the friend thats awful at keeping in touch but is always there for you. I'm the friend you won't make easily, it takes a while to get close to me, but once you do, you make a friend for life.

What i'm looking for?...

• Friends and good company - well you can never have too much of that.
• A regular and trustworthy play partner for public and private play - who is a friend first and foremost.
• To eventually build something longterm and meaningful and maybe 24/7 like with someone special - if such a person falls out of the sky - Well a girl can dream...

Things that lift my spirit... Stationary especially notebooks *purrrr*. Art especially paintings. The Sea. Well constructed words, be it spoken, written or lyrical form. Good pornography. Cappuccino or more specifically chocolate dusted, coffee tinged foamed milk. Writing crap poetry and other self indulgent outpourings. The smell of new plastic. Yogurt. Radiohead. Spinning (the exercise class not the actual act). Roller coaster rides. Luxury chocolate. Lip gloss. Music festivals. Wandering off on my own. Movies especially Gangster films with brooding film ultra violence (not gore). The many amazing wonderful things in the world. My friends.

Vexations to the soul... One line or (even worse) one word memos. Text speak. Words like "hawt" or "lulz" *shudder*. The over use of "lol". Bad manners. My laziness. Being ignored. The abuse I get because i'm tall. Dishonesty. People who don't look where they are going. The one regret I have. Moments of weakness (well some of them ). Prejudice. My personal space issues. The many awful terrible things in the world.