About me: I am a loving and humble slave to a Master who is also my friend. I am misunderstood in various ways, by many. I want to speak to other subs and slaves, as I don't have any real life friends into bdsm.

I have a burning need to obey and be controlled, but I only obey my Master. No one else. In fact, I am controlling with everyone else. He is not my full-time Master, but I am always his slave. I have yet to find anything I would not do for him if he needed or required it. That does not mean I am completely wet and obsessive: I can still hold a normal conversation that does not revolve around him. I like good books and films and eating out like anyone else. I like to think I'm intelligent and amusing, but who doesn't?

I have recently realised I am also a masochist. The control is everything, feeling that control on a daily basis, but the pain and punishment is not just the expression of that control and his power over me; it is also an end in itself, something I crave, need, demand from him. I am like a cranky, whiny, toddler if I go more than a few weeks without a serious beating.

I often wonder why I need to be hurt and to serve, but I accept that I do, and sites like this prove I'm not entirely abnormal. I don't think I could go back to my previous vanilla life now. I do have a weakness for heavy impact CP, especially caning, although prefer it on my bottom. I'm not good with it on my cunt. To put it mildly.

I don't want my limits to get in the way. I want his limits to be the only thing that count; to take whatever he needs to give me, not without complaint (certainly not!) but knowing that it is mine to take, his to give, to whatever extent he desires, beyond what I can reasonably take. There is no reasonable in my Daddy's cruel, delicious, sadism. (Unless he is being a girl about blood again, but we've agreed to differ on that.)

I am a bit of a grammar Nazi, but I try hard not to let that out on the boards. I am daily punished for that anyway, as my Master is careless with spelling and grammar and I'm not allowed to correct it. You have no idea.

Just to be clear, I choose to be entirely devoted to a man who is not in love with me as I am with him. A foolish choice, no doubt, and ultimately futile, but please don't be rude about it, as it is my decision. You can say "I told you so" when I'm posting about how desperate I am once I'm released.

Eye colour: Brown   Hair colour: Brown   Height: 5ft 7in   Weight: 12st 5lb   BMI: 26.9  

This profile was last updated on 10 Feb 11, 7:31 PM.

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