As i've sat here and watched the rain batter off my window i've been thinking about what to write here.

Am i submissive anymore? Does that disappear? i know i'm kinky, but would i let someone else have control over me?

The answer is, that i don't know. I suspect it doesn't disappear it's just dormant.

I do make decisions for myself obviously but i couldn't make them for anyone else.

Trust

Now there's a big word. What does that mean? Right now, i have no trust. That's ok though because now i can start from scratch and build it up hopefully!

Attitude

I have a good attitude to life and people. i have got a broad mind & an enquiring one, i am interested in people and what they have to say.

I am not a depressive, i have pride in myself, sometimes bothered with low self esteem (people are quick to give me an arse kicking though, so it tends not to last that long).

Kinky Stuff

Restraints, blindfolds, sensation, flogging, spanking, hair pulling are all delightful.

http://www.informedconsent.co.uk/dictionary/Sens...

http://www.informedconsent.co.uk/dictionary/Domi...

Titles etc

Master & Sir aren't names that sit comfortable with me, they don't roll of my tongue naturally, in fact i feel a bit of a fake & silly when i do use them. Not only that, the person who insist on me using them will lose my respect very quickly, so it's perhaps not a good thing.

Limits & Safewords

Since i am not a huge S & M player, i tend to steer clear of both of these, anyone that i am about to play with will know this of course and any health n safety issues will quickly be dispersed.

SSC & RACK

i believe people make too much of an issue on both aspects, do what you do, not what other people think is what i subscribe to, let your mind open to everything.

Lifestyle

I am not new to BDSM and i've read quite a bit so i've learned a lot about it and about me, which is good, i suppose self analysing at various times over the years has proved productive.

Past Relationships

Are just that, in the past, move forward, not backward, don't look back with regret, look to the future with hope.

Important Stuff non BDSM / Kinky Stuff

I work full time 9 to 5 (not as a pro sub, sorry had to get that in). My job can be stressful at times and it's at these times that i'm at the most independant.

My children are the most important people in my life.

I like:

Slob days

reading

playing the Wii

rain battering against my window & gale force winds on a Saturday and Sunday morning

autumn, winter, spring and summer, each bring me something different

the clocks going forward and going back

a clean house (evidently i am having a self dillusional day, yes, I will stop writing soon and get on with it)

red wine

eating out (i've had a great year)

eating in

eating

Barcelona

Snow on Christmas eve

Christmas

Heating

Saturday mornings when the house is quiet.

Sunday mornings when the house is noisy.

the smell of coffee

Vibrators (makes note to buy a new one)

Okay, that's it, i'm getting up now, honestly.

*Previous names i have on this profile aren't to be taken seriously in any way.

** Song of the week: http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=vSm45nbXJ7Q&featur...