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IC Name: curiousity_driven Joined: 20 Dec 2009 Last visit: 18 days ago Sex/gender: Female Location: CO (Colchester), UK Age: 41

Hello everyone, currently owned by @Eoz_borne.

Update July 2011 We are currently looking for a third to join us for occassional play, male or female Top/Dominant as E is intereseted in watching me submit to another.

We are also interested in hearing from bi couples or a bi man for some experimentation.

So if your interested please drop either of us a line here on IC or you will find us under the same names on Fetlife

Now for the bit about me: Over the past few years I have discovered things about the inner me that have I will admit surprised me at times, I have always been submissive I just pushed the feelings aside for a very long time as a teenager I had relationships that pushed some of the right buttons but never one that pushed all. Now I do and I am making up for lost time.

I like my play far rougher and intense than I thought I would in the beginning, I enjoy mental domination as much as physical and I have a real liking for certain types of pain which took me sometime to accept.

We are currently experimenting with resistance/rape play and I have discovered a real love of fighting back and being physically overpowered and taken by E.

I submit easily and completly to the right person, it is the natural thing for me to do, though I think most people in the vanilla part of my life would find it hard/probably impossible to imagine that this side to me even exists, I am a very in control person in my vanilla life, however behind closed doors I relish in giving up that control totally, including being a total slut on request for E.

Update 20.12.2010 I have finally admitted just how much of a 'pain slut' I actually am. It's not that I just like a bit of pain now and again, it's not just that I love the pain it's that deep down I really need the pain, I need to know that I can't control how much pain there is, in what shape that pain is delivered and above all that I can't control when it stops.

Yes I have a few specifics that even just the threat/thought of will get me highly aroused every time but on the whole I admit that most types of pain delivered within the context of me being unable to control the outcome in any way (short of my safe word, which I have never used) will seriously get me off in a big way.

So today is the day that I finally stop saying to people 'yes I like a bit of pain' and start saying 'I need pain it's a big, big part of what pushes my buttons'.

I don't know why it has taken me so long to feel able to say it out loud as such, The need for D/s admission came alot easier than the 'painslut' one somehow deep in my mind it made me feel vulnerable and uncomfortable for people to know just how very much I like/need it.

I am definitely a slave, I thrive on knowing I am making E happy, knowing that that He owns me body and soul, and can do and take any and everything He pleases to/from me fulfills a deep need in me. To have him smile at me when I get things right, to know He is proud of me and loves me, to know I am pleasing Him and to feel his hand stroke my hair when I sit at his feet leaves me feeling so utterly content.

I love experiencing and learning new things, I have a very curious streak - hence the screen name and often would want to try something just in the name of curiousity. To me its all part of the fun of this lifestyle and my life in general.

I know with E I am safe, secure and I can trust totally in his care of me. He is more than my Owner and Dom, He is my friend, my lover, my partner, my Master, to me He is everything.

I joined IC as a way to learn from the experiences of others, connect with people living near me and make some new friends all of which I have done and will continue to do.

I fully believe this lifestyle is a constant, ever changing and evolving learning curve for all involved and I never want it to stop

c_d x

This profile was last updated on 21 Sep 11, 9:15 PM.

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