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IC Name: Nekkii Joined: 29 May 2006 Last visit: 124 days ago Sex/gender: Male Location: Sheffield, UK Age: 35

Note - I'm very much taken, so not looking for anything anymore

I am very sexually-submissive, and a bit of a 'goth', although I'm hardly much of a traditional goth.

I'm also very bouncey, generally friendly and open, and I can be really fiery and passionate... And I'm a huge geek.

It's an odd mix I suppose.

I tend to get really into my hobbies an interests (and even my work on occasions). My current interests include BDSM (obviously!), Clubbing, Music - especially industrial music right now, Video Games, NFL Football (Miami Dolphins), and Game Theory & Design. I've also been really into Anime, Wargaming, Roleplaying, and Magic The Gathering in the past, although I kinda class these interests as "dormant" right now (although I still watch some anime, but only really really good stuff).

Oh and yeah, I really am 34, but I'm lucky enough to be mistaken for a student (& get ID'd) still sometimes, and I also seem to have quite a 'youthful' outlook and interests in life.. which is perhaps weighed against a greater maturity, but I'll leave that for you to decide

I seem to be what some books describe as a 'natural' sub. Every sexual thought or fantasy I've had that I can remember for my entire life has been submissive. I don't even really see any of it as a 'fetish' or a 'kink' - it is basically just me. What people describe as 'subspace' is the most natural thing to me, so much so that I don't really even realise it or can even distinguish it really - it's just me getting turned on normally.

=== Likes:

What am I especially into? Well it's always hard for me to say because I feel I'm into everything and nothing in some ways. Almost anything can work for me, it's all about the context and mentally & emotionally what's going on. What's going on in the mind is so much more important than anything else for me. I =really= like being humiliated, controlled mentally and physically, tied down, 'forced' (but this can mean a variety of things) worship of my domme; I'm turned on by my helplessness & the dominant's power over me. Because it turns me on so much, that in turn makes me feel =even= more helpless as I am forced to realise I am actually liking it - which just sends me into a beautiful spiral of further submission.

I'm not especially masochistic, and it often feels to me like a domme is actually =losing= control if too much effort is put into physical pain-causing. Using the threat of pain to =control= is actually much more of a turn on to me than just the physicality of it. But as I say - really anything CAN work for me if it's 'done right' - I have, on a few occassions, been really turned on by pain as well, but it's very tricky to get 'right' I find.

I've become very much more aware of my emotionally masochistic side as well over the past few years. I'm extremely cautious about this, as I know how dangerous & unhealthy it can get when 'done wrong'. Emotional masochism is pretty hard to explain, but there have been some excellent threads on it, here: http://www.informedconsent.co.uk/posts/200057/3 and here: http://www.informedconsent.co.uk/posts/173779/2

Not especially exciting, but the closest thing I have to an specific physical 'fetish' is that I love being slowly, strokingly tickled - all over, but especially around my chest, underarms & nipples. This makes me feel so vunerable because for whatever reason, if done right, the sensation is like an 'instant turn on button' on me that I have practically no control over no matter what else I am feeling physically, mentally, or even emotionally. For some reason, it's just such a willpower breaker for me. (And I actually have an enormous amount of willpower as a person!).

I've actually thought about and written down a lot more about my 'fantasies' and exactly what makes me tick sexually, but I'd rather share that with individuals than everyone - & also I feel this profile is wordy enough already!

=== Limits:

It's hard to say as I don't really know exactly what my limits are. But it's a safe bet I've not really ever reached them. 'Cold' unattached sadism can be a bit of a soft limit / turn off though. I like someone who can show they really =enjoy= their power over me. As is probably obvious, I'm more of an "abused sex toy" submissive, as opposed to a "servile" one. (But again, really, I have to note anything can & has worked for me).

The hard limits I do know I have are: Causing harm to others, anything that would cause even medium-term physical damage, or too much financial damage to me (eg: I couldn't do anything that would make me lose my job or home!). I also believe any kind of 'toilet play' would very likely be a hard limit for me.

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I wish I could say that physical attraction wasn't of huge importance, but I have to admit it really is for me, as it's the natural starting point - sexual desire - that makes me start to go submissive.

Do note that as a person & in my normal life I'm far from being a 'doormat' sub & there's a whole lot more to me than just my sexually submissive side. I think most people who know me would certainly say I have a lot of personality of my own, possibly too much at times. I even have quite an ego at times... and I don't think my sexuality makes me any "lesser" person in reality whatsoever. (I thought I'd better make that clear as I enjoy being made to feel completely the opposite as noted above).

Eye colour: hazel   Hair colour: sand brown   Height: 5ft 7in   Weight: 8st 5lb   BMI: 18.2  

This profile was last updated on 6 Oct 11, 1:35 AM.

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