This I have discovered as I have struggled to hide my BDSM nature whilst married to a lovely vanilla.

Much as it pains me to admit it, I cannot make the relationship work as it results in me feeling "wrong", "different" and "kinky weird". Well I am those things but I refuse to be ashamed of them.

Current position - looking for a house. I need to take time out to embrace my nature. I doubt very much a sub will beat a path to my door right now but that's fine. I need time to adjust so that I can be a happy, well rounded (not the beer gut - that's going) Dom, father and friend.

No point lying - this is my situation.

Thanks for popping by - come back for developments!