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| 27 Nov 07 | Words (1) | (17 Jan 08, 4:01 AM by femsup) |
| There are not words, to describe what I seek. To find victory in complete defeat. To feel joy, in cruel pain. To be your toy, to love again. To steal my tears and swallow my pride. To know your always at my side. To feel safe in a way i've rarely known, to feel comfort, to never be alone. [more...] | ||
| 17 Dec 07 | On the brink | (17 Dec 07, 10:57 PM by poutanaki) |
| On the brink again. Coffee tomorrow. And I am equally excited and terrified. Constantly wet. Constantly nervous. Constantly squirming. Constantly hopefull. That this chemistry might just extend to real life. That there won't be another deflated disappointment. That you might just be Dom enough, be strong enough, be strict enough. And then there's the fear. The prickling, stomach flipping fear. Of the unknown. Of the possibility that you might just want me. That I might just want you. That I might have to trust. That I might just get my hearts desire (or even worse that I might not.) [more...] | ||
| 1 Dec 07 | Arghhhhhhhhhh (1) | (2 Dec 07, 1:47 AM by poutanaki) |
| Today I am itching for a firm hand, antsy, in need of control, fed up, horny, emotional, empty, lost, sad... [more...] | ||
| 28 Nov 07 | A faraway Prince *swoon* (1) | (29 Nov 07, 2:41 AM by Cuddle_Slut) |
| Don't be so nice to me Sir. For with all the lust you stir. You only tease, I want you, I beg you please. God I want you so bad Though I don't know you really at all. Or all the wicked thoughts you've had. Enchanted by you, enwrapped, entrapped. On every word this package wrapped. Sweet subservient little slut. This body aches, this mind adores, and when you want to take this girl, you know she's yours. Oh how I want to be at your feet, Your treat. And I am wide eyed, not innocent, but awe struck. Your miles away and just my luck. Unobtainable. For now. | ||
| 27 Nov 07 | This girl (1) | (28 Nov 07, 9:23 AM by happy_bunny) |
| This girl wants to please you, and always appease you. Wants to touch your beautiful skin. Wants to let you in. She knows what an honour it is to serve you. That to even observe you, is an almost decadent sin. [more...] | ||
| 23 Nov 07 | Its over :( (4) | (24 Nov 07, 6:51 PM by MarkVarley) |
| I've just walked away from the closest I ever got to what I think I want. Because as happy as it made me, it made me sad too. Too sad. I don't even know why really. Because it wasn't enough? Because I couldn't cope without affection or contact between sessions? Because she didn't understand me? Because i'm a shit sub and I can't really do it and I ran away? I don't know, but now I feel hollow and i'm crying and tomorrow i'll want to take it all back probably. But its over and I just walked away from the most beautiful Domme and I feel lost. | ||
| 17 Nov 07 | Foolish | (17 Nov 07, 11:09 PM by poutanaki) |
| I was happy there, in your arms for a while. [more...] | ||
| 12 Sep 07 | Hello Mistress... | (12 Sep 07, 12:48 AM by poutanaki) |
| You asked me to send you an email, so here it is... [more...] | ||
| 14 Jul 07 | Compulsive | (14 Jul 07, 2:35 PM by poutanaki) |
| Legs twitching, knees aching, body shaking, sweat pouring, wet and sticky, mind racing, fingers tracing, a touch that burns. Must sleep, before the urge returns. Compulsive. | ||
| 10 Jul 07 | I know what I am! (1) | (10 Jul 07, 8:37 PM by Master_of_lb) |
| I've spent way to long worrying if I was truly sub, or if I was sub enough, lol! Much in the same way I wondered if I was really bisexual for 9 years, when it was so bloody obvious I was. You'd think i'd learn.To stop judging myself by strangers views, to stop worrying I won't live up to some silly "grade" of sub I feel others think I should reach.I know who I am, and what I am. I know how I think and feel, and how I ache inside. I know how much it makes me smile, and of the hours wasted day dreaming of simple wicked pleasures. I know the pain of missing domination and the relief to find it again. [more...] | ||
| 13 May 07 | Little Girl Lost | (13 May 07, 11:12 PM by poutanaki) |
This little girl lost need's, someone and noone.
Is searching and growing.
Is fighting, delighting.
A sordid history writing.
Is ever more knowing 
and practically glowing!
This naughty little girl lost! [more...]
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| 31 Mar 07 | Speak | (31 Mar 07, 1:40 AM by poutanaki) |
| How can we speak, when every word you utter. Reminds me of those long slow hugs. Or times never to be repeated. Of love defeated. Of the cage of my heart, and the torture, of our non existent future. | ||
| 23 Mar 07 | Tease me (1) | (29 Mar 07, 11:20 PM by Visualize) |
| Tease me, don't appease me. Don't give in to my wicked grin, or these puppy dog eye's or my heart of sin. Leave me throbbing, aching, pleading. Panting, bruised and bleeding. Love me, soul set free. Cherished like long stemmed flower. Slap me darling, make me lust. A prize to devour. You have my heart and all my trust. Take me, brake me, but don't forsake me. A rose by any other name. Is still as rose the same. Defeat me, mistreat me. Oh you complete me. Forever on my knees. Yes, do all you want to me my love. But please please tease. | ||
| 22 Mar 07 | Our House | (22 Mar 07, 10:38 PM by poutanaki) |
| Our house, will be new and shiny. Scented with honey soft smelling soap and desire. It will be clean and tidy. Dirty and wretched and wonderful. Its will be comfort and safety and freedom for ourselves. A door to our imagination. | ||
| 13 Mar 07 | First Touch | (13 Mar 07, 1:27 AM by poutanaki) |
| I've ached so long for this forbidden touch, Dreamed about this kiss, this hidden bliss. Yet all at once it feels too much. Though equally not near enough. To quench the reawakened desire Of this forever burning fire. [more...] | ||
| 19 Jan 06 | Finally got the good hard spanking | (19 Jan 06, 1:47 AM by poutanaki) |
| Finally got the good hard spanking i've been waiting for i've been sitting carefully all day, its practically glowing and its definately left its mark! Been nipping to the toilet today at work to look at my ass. Watch it change from pink to red to black, as the bruising develops. Now there is more red and black than there is skin colour! Lol. I feel proud because I was a good girl and took it, all 125 strokes of punishment (and even asked for some more!). | ||
| 8 Jul 05 | Yearning :( (1) | (11 Dec 05, 2:31 PM by EvilNoodle) |
| Are you out there? My knight, my Prince, my prison! I ache for a touch I do not know. A way I have not followed. A love I dare not speak... Hold me tight. Bond me. Teach me. Love me. | ||
