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| 21 Apr 07 | the most sick evil thing ever (88) | (18 Aug 11, 6:11 PM by Pauls_babybeth) |
| This has boiled up inside me for a long time. It is creepy and horrible but it neds to come out and perhaps this is the only way. I' m writing on bethy's behalf here as she just wants to throw up, she can't express the words, they're maybe nightmarish. [more...] | ||
| 3 May 07 | vaccinations are a pain in my arse (2) | (3 May 07, 9:28 PM by WaterDragon) |
Umm, just got back from a and e after having a tetanus jab up the ruccus. Owwwwieeeeeees  sniff , snifff boo hoo please take care of this lil bear. She tried to pat a dog she didn't know yetherday and got a bite on de finger and didn't wanna make nothing out of it so waited until the haem. people saw her today for the check up. They had to have the doctor distract me and hold my hands so i didnae fight or nothing while she puts the needle in my arse. | ||
| 2 May 07 | afternoon party planning (August) (6) | (3 May 07, 9:03 PM by bethy4ever) |
Okay, I reckon by august I will have officially moved into my flat and am planning an afternoon tea party (boys have to wear a tux n dicky bow, girls in party dresses), just a small one. No actual date yet but anyone interested and in London/ Surrey area let me know. Probably do it on a Saturday afternoon. Vanilla clothing on arrival please cos the flats on a council estate. (Sissies are invited too but no outdressing bethy  ) | ||
| 1 May 07 | how to piss off the boss and get yourself sacked (21) | (2 May 07, 7:52 PM by keep_trying_bitch) |
| WARNING: At least half of these will end you a trip to a loony bin [more...] | ||
| 2 May 07 | snarl and growl | (2 May 07, 6:13 PM by bethy4ever) |
| Well, you'll be glad to know you get few days peace from me. My connection on the estate is flipping fangled and down so I'm in a net cafe for an hour. To quote Arnie "I'll be back, hasta la pasta n pizza baby." | ||
| 29 Apr 07 | A Story For Bethy: Jasmine's Secret | (29 Apr 07, 12:40 AM by bethy4ever) |
| CHAPTER ONE: How Jasmine Met Lizzy [more...] | ||
| 28 Apr 07 | another depressing one (you don't have to read it) (11) | (28 Apr 07, 1:10 PM by bethy4ever) |
| It occurs to me that I just think and question too much, I can'ts relax and let things be, it's not in me. I'm thinking that it partly due to my parents pushing me so far to always become something yet when it was something like a performer they wouldn't push. They didn't understnd that was what I wanted to be and just felt it was a fools game. [more...] | ||
| 25 Apr 07 | X Factor (18) | (28 Apr 07, 12:46 AM by Im_smoo) |
| I'm happy happy happy. I sang To Sir, With Love and they asked if I was singing it to Simon. I thought they were gonna say no to me then the producer lady burst out laughing and handed me a golden ticket. I'm through to round 2. | ||
| 24 Apr 07 | silly cutesy thing | (24 Apr 07, 10:45 PM by bethy4ever) |
| Umm otay, i hatha share this, mum told me it today and it made me blush blush so here goes. Well, i got memories ofher singing lullabyes when me were berry smal, but mostly like pwotest songs cos she an ex hippy. Umm, anyway she laughs at dat and say dey never sent me to sleep. And she told me that I used to climb into bed with her and dad in the morning and sing her lovesongs. blush blush | ||
| 23 Apr 07 | groupies wanted (4) | (24 Apr 07, 4:03 PM by bethy4ever) |
| Alright you great and wonderful, and even just a slightly kinky people, i need a posse to come to the second round of auditions for something with me on the first tuesday in June in London. Preferrably looking quite nilla as don't wanna give too much wrong impression, they know a little so spin doctors will cover up stuff and if you think you can give me the date, dress sparkly vanilla and gimme a memo (no outsparkling me). | ||
| 22 Apr 07 | actually a good day for a change | (22 Apr 07, 11:09 PM by bethy4ever) |
| Yes things were really good and I feel confident about tomorrow's audition. Frisk came online and I had some more getting to know you time. He's nice, kind, funny and unlike the sort of men figures I'm used to. He can dominate and wants to know about infantalism. I'm going to take things slowly in case I get freaked out and scared off. There's been so much hurt so maybe now it's time for the right things, to learn to put the hurt behind me and get on with being sweet, kind and the cuddly soul (not tart) that I'd like to be thought of as. Thats the real me, someone who gives cuddles, cares and has [more...] | ||
| 20 Apr 07 | Scary/ prophetic dream (6) | (21 Apr 07, 5:25 PM by webmonkey) |
| So I had this dream last night which had a lot to do with my place in sexuality and thing. It was a vivid one that I woke up from because I managed to get out of it at the right time. Here is what I remember. [more...] | ||
| 21 Apr 07 | issues make me sad (1) | (21 Apr 07, 9:37 AM by fussyone) |
| It not that I wanna be sumone with issues who yells n makes fuss, it jus all I know how to do. I gots so pushed so hard as a liddle one to becomes anything dat it left me wib a reluctance to makes own mind. I's rather have someone else to follow and to teach and train, to guide an just keep me safe. [more...] | ||
| 20 Apr 07 | everything gonna be okay (1) | (20 Apr 07, 11:10 PM by Deviant_Bitch) |
| One day, just maybe, things be okay, i be with someone who will be really nice and hold me tight, rock me gently and take away the worlds twoubles. I won't need to cry in my pillow no mores, no more hiding away, just cuddles and snuggles and candyfloss, and popcorn and pizza and trips to the cinema and zoo and being always reminded that i don't need to struggle. | ||
| 19 Apr 07 | hot, bothered n sweaty | (19 Apr 07, 3:36 PM by bethy4ever) |
| Gaaaaaaaah, silly old weather made me too hots, can't understand how some people can stand being outside, it just sweaty and wishing i could soak in a long bubble bath with someone nice and sweet rubbing soap in all my right places, me gently licking at their cheeks and playing with them in the water. Purrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. | ||
| 16 Apr 07 | de pubwic pwonouncement (1) | (16 Apr 07, 6:10 PM by WaterDragon) |
| I hereby announce that at long last, after living two years now as a girl , I have had my first greenlight for cosmetic surgery from Montgomery. Thats the ogre beaten, but he wants me to be approved by barratt too. A walk over. | ||
| 15 Apr 07 | what we all have in common (12) | (16 Apr 07, 12:19 AM by Ariodante) |
| Now I don't know much about vanillas I'm sorry to say, they never gave me a chace to know them. One thing I do know is that every person in the worl is here to do something or another, we've all got a part to play. From the lowest of the low to the Highest of the High, every single person matters. [more...] | ||
| 12 Apr 07 | growing and changing (1) | (12 Apr 07, 9:40 PM by annjon) |
| It's weird and sorta scary but I find myself growing up. I still want to look cute and swweet and spread as much love as possible but now there's a big need for sex, for intimacy and someone to wrap their arms around me and all the problems that i face each day to go away, for a weight to be taken off my shoulders. Will I find love? Will I make love? Will I cry in my pillow each night? Is there a spell to speed things up? What's the answer? All these desires and nowhere to place them. | ||
| 10 Apr 07 | their baby (a sexual rp fantasy) | (10 Apr 07, 5:27 PM by bethy4ever) |
| So this is a complete fantasy piece, sorta polygamy that i would like to play out with a couple. [more...] | ||
| 17 Mar 07 | the need for security (2) | (9 Apr 07, 9:41 PM by CuffSnapper) |
| i'm not sure what it is but the thought of being regressed to a helpless state, put on reins, locked in a pen or cot, dressed up prety and not allowed much say in what happens is a security thing for me. [more...] | ||
