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| 10 Jan 07 | In the scheme of things | (10 Jan 07, 12:23 PM by MissTee) |
| In the scheme of things, I sometimes abhor my self interest. I truly despair of my small mindedness. Today I am finding it so difficult, Who the fuck told me to take minds and souls and mould them to my will. Although this seems to be the core of my being, I am trying to educate myself to look at the world in a more progressive way. I have realised that when loving friends have said I am a snob, and I have replied yes, isn't everyone . it was still about control. If I can't control it, a one thought I don't exsist. Most of the people I care about, who I would be so much less for not knowing, can't, [more...] | ||
| 8 Jan 07 | Landmark for me, so happy (1) | (8 Jan 07, 8:53 AM by MissyG) |
| Having spent over thirty years undercover I finally stepped out today, and it felt fanbloodytastic. I spent time at the LAM and felt so at peace. I didn't know what to expect but what I got was a genuine welcome, friendly advice. I thank the people I met for taking me as I am. I know that is not always an easy thing to do. I bought two wonderful prints, and a book I have wanted for some time. The next step is a munch, 2007 here I come. | ||
| 5 Jan 07 | so here I go again | (5 Jan 07, 2:33 AM by MissTee) |
| Well it was bound to happen, I am finally pissed off, and I mean it BIG FUCKING time, why are people so arsehole bad a being decent. Prime example, talking with a guy for three weeks, all going well. Suddenly he disappears. I attempt to contact him, say look if you've changed your mind,fine just have the decency to tell me, because that is dam disrespectful, nothing. I get on with my life. Suddenly same guy appears four weeks later with email, deep apologies, wouldn't blame me for not speaking to him again. How he couldn't stop thinking about me, of course that should have warned me but I have [more...] | ||
| 28 Dec 06 | who knew | (28 Dec 06, 10:18 AM by MissTee) |
| That's it enough is enough, woke yesterday feeling so ill, rang my doctor and got an appointment immediately, this should have warned me of what was to come but no, get to surgery and not only is my doctor of many years vanished but the new guy is one i had managed to dump umpteen years ago because he was an arrogant arsehole, time has done nothing to improve that situation. He then proceeds to tell me I need to loose wieght, duh!, stop smoking feck off, and that i am on wrong medication. He also thinks i have diabetes and i have to have more blood taken. Leave the building fuming because no one [more...] | ||
| 27 Dec 06 | Mints, banking and life.. | (27 Dec 06, 9:10 AM by MissTee) |
| Awoke this morning at 6.30am feeling decidedly off, ate three after eight mints and then went banking. I knew the unusual calm that has overtaken me for the past few weeks was not normal, ha ha. Well the feeling has shoved off, and I realise that I am so glad. Having lived as a straight talking, foot in mouth gal for as long as I can remember, being the wishy washy liberal, hippy laid back, individual I was becoming was making me ill. Then the joy of reading webblogs, the diversity, the joy and the sorrow.The remarks that made me want to punch someone and not to make them feel good. The words of [more...] | ||
| 26 Dec 06 | Just another manic Monday | (26 Dec 06, 12:52 AM by MissTee) |
| Ok next please, that must be easter and bunnies. Today has not been to bad at all, survived chicken, lamb and beef. Managed not to upset any of the family, spoke to all the important folks in my life. Caught a cold so been feeling awful most of the day, I think the drugs and alcohol I've consummed might have helped with my attitude so decided from now on any family hoe downs it is paracetemol, lemsip and rum and coke for me. James Brown dead, even the kids felt it so played some of his tunes to say ta ta, that man sure new how to live and his music is sooo down and dirty. I got my mp3 thingy so [more...] | ||
| 24 Dec 06 | Job done. (1) | (24 Dec 06, 6:07 PM by mollie) |
| Whoop de do!!! I have finally finished. Sprouts done, parsnips done. Dead meat marinating, house clean. Rum and coke in my hand, bloody marvelous two days of doing as little as possible. I don't mind people believing in a big guy who wears funky clothes and gets off on climbing down chimney's. I get a holiday. I have enjoyed the run up to this xmas, so maybe I am finally mellowing out, well I have been told people see pink pigs fly. So Happy xmas to all. | ||
| 19 Dec 06 | Hey I never said it was interesting | (19 Dec 06, 7:42 AM by MissTee) |
| I found myself awake again at 4.45am this morning, either I don't get to sleep until this time or if I sleep before midnight I am awake at this time. I wonder if I'm the most thinking person in the world or just a bleedin nutter, suspect it's the later. When young I could sleep for ever, loved my bed. I think it started when I had my first relationship where Master expected me to be awake whenever he came in, being 17 and very much in idiot's mode, thought it was a sign of true love to be wanted, of course now the shoes on the other foot I realise he was a murkin arsehole but hey obviously didn't [more...] | ||
| 17 Dec 06 | Things can only get better (2) | (17 Dec 06, 1:00 AM by MissTee) |
| Well another shit arse of a day,woke this morning to phone ringing after being a kip for just two hours, my heavenly grandson on the other end "are you coming nan, ". I then realised I'd promised to take him shopping, went into front room looked at walls that had not been finished,screamed bollocks . Managed to get dressed and out the door when I realised I forgot shopping list, back inside, then back out with hateful trolley.Missed the bloody bus, so had to walk, forgot scarf so bloody freezing cold. Picks up little darling who proceeds to spend an intermnable bus ride telling me I was late and [more...] | ||
| 12 Dec 06 | Night ramblings | (12 Dec 06, 12:35 AM by MissTee) |
| I have never done this before, but tonight sitting here I felt the need to clear some thoughts that have been lurking, dirty lurkers. I am sad and happy. Maybe it is the time of year, I have lost friends and family, like so many others at this time of year, and it always goes on until my mothers passing in the middle of January. Of course I relive my journey over the last twelve months, and make plans for the coming year, knowing well that it is an illusion, tradition a way to get motivated. I have never kept a new year's resolution but still make them. I also feel so happy that we will have a new [more...] | ||
